closing down

i feel grateful, blessed and cursed. i feel warm when together but still alone. everything surrounding me is blossoming in fuzzy goodness against the secretive stalemate i can't win; i shut down. i'm shutting down. narrowing my vision i'm not as open as before yet still i hope - negativity won't make me pause. your eyes pose sadness but are hopeful...there's love there. there is vitality in the distance.